It's time to learn your lesson

You know when you go to a hotel or on holiday and you can sleep incredibly well, but when you wake up your heart jumps a bit as you do not remember for a split second where you are...well my heart didn't do that. My stomach however did have absolute magpies.

I had woken up in my new university room and thought I needed to make a great impression, but also wanted to feel comfy. No one realised that all the education students were getting together for an introduction. I met two others from my course and we walked over to the block we were in. I then realised all the education students were together as my flatmate was there too.

I would say we had a good table, where we all gelled quickly, creating a Snapchat group, laughing and just generally having a good time. Our first lecture concluded by building a sensory den, whether that was inside or outside. My group and another group decided to use the grassland area to create our den. We used a nature theme and used the 5 different senses for a child. At this point, we realised we could just join with another group and chill with them whilst we waited for the time to be up.

As it was not a real lecture, it lasted for 2 hours and then we were allowed to leave and go do our thing.

My 2 other flatmates and I decided we were going to go to the beach party. When I heard this I assumed we were going to the beach near us, not to the other campus and going clubbing where the theme was a beach party. As it was my first time clubbing and dressing up for the club, I had no idea what to wear. I put out a poll on my Instagram (Simplycc04) and the most popular vote was for the pink and orange cropped, tied-up t-shirt from Shein. I ended up changing the trousers to my ripped jeans with butterfly and sun prints on them, also from Shein.

Top Tip: Go clubbing before university, even just to get the experience, that way you know what to expect.

What colour would you have chosen?

• Pink
• Orange
• Blue
• Beige

Once we got there, my friends went straight to the bar to get some drinks, I knew this meant I would be looking after them for the night. It was an exciting time as I had never looked after anyone drunk before.

If you love loud spaces and flashing lights, then clubbing is for you. I had no idea what to expect, but if you wanted to have a serious conversation with someone, it was not the right time and place to do it. You need to have clear hand signals to tell your friends where you are going, so everyone keeps track of everyone. The music was amazing and it was a brilliant experience, however, as someone with sensory issues, clubbing is not a bit of me.

It was a great vibe, the music was brilliant, the friends were brilliant, the decoration was awful and the guys around me looked pretty decent. There was one guy I saw across the dance floor, chatting to his mates. I told my friend I liked the guy across the dance floor, so he tried helping me get closer to him, but of course, I was shy and it was only day 2 in the villa (uni).

However, a little bit of a juicy insight, I started falling for one of my friends that night, but quickly found out that my friend also liked him. Now, one thing you should know about me is if I am not dating the guy, if we both like the same guy, then I will take a step back and allow you to get to know them. By the end of the night, both of my friends were "together" and this is where I started to feel sad and left out.

I know everyone says the first friends you meet are not the ones you will have through university. I had pictured in my head, my 2 flatmates and I just being the closest trio on campus and doing everything together. Who remembers what my first blog said about trios? Note to self, do not get into a trio friendship, you always end up hurt, crying and left out. This was a little different as obviously a "couple" would spend alone time together, but it still hurt.

This blog ends in a negative way which I do not want my blogs to be about, however, this is for those who want a good read or are about to start university life and want to know a deeper insight into it. I get on well with my flatmates now, I just had a large blip in my experience. There are no negative feelings between any of us and I plan to keep it this way, this is not directed at them, this is to get my feelings across and to state, that the first people you see at university are not going to stay with you forever.

Quote of the blog:

"Don't waste your time in anger, regrets, worries and grudges. Life is too short to be unhappy" - I am glad I put this quote now, because if I had this quote then maybe my university lifestyle would have changed. This quote is meaningful to me as this is when my university life started going downhill and my emotions came out. At the end of the day, the only unhappy person is yourself, if you are constantly in a negative cycle. If you need to seek help, seek the help, if you want to get better, find someone to help make it better. You are never alone! I felt as if I was the most alone I had ever been.

The next blog will be sadder as I stated above my feelings started to come out more. There will be a few ugly crying pictures, unfortunately. This blog is about honesty and a real insight into the university lifestyle from all points.